Wednesday, December 2, 2009

The Adventure Called Life Day are a masterpiece...

God spoke again today. it just popped right into my heart.

"I am jealous for you."

holy crap! ah! where did that come from? we sang "How He Loves" and then while the skit was happening, God just spoke. amazing. I don't know how to explain why this happens to me. I really hope I'm not the only one who experiences this :)

ephesians 2:10 says, "For we are God's workmanship, created in Chirst Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

this verse makes me smile. i think if my soul could smile, it would...the idea that this life, this existence, isn't about me, it has never been and never will be about me is extremely peace giving, and fulfilling. Somehow God has managed to chisel away that "selfish" part of me. The part that says, "I want this or I want that," He has really been chiseling away at me. I'm not saying I don't have selfish desires, I have just noticed they aren't as important anymore. Sure, I fall and give in once and a while...but my main focus is those around me, not myself, if that makes sense :)

that is what I think the word I got today is getting at. God is truly jealous for me. He wants me to be His, and only his. I do not belong to my selfish desires, I do not belong to the worldly ways that have bound me, and I will never "belong to" a man either. If and when I ever get married, it will be a partnership. Sure I will be his wife, but I will be God's daughter first...that is so freeing...thanks lord.

now im sitting in the library on the quiet floor. yippee!! more work to be done :)


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