The Adventure Called Life Day 193...to know the gospel...

i desire to truly know the Gospel. I mean really know it. I know how it has changed my life, I know how you can be saved by it and live by it, but I'm not sure exactly how to go about reaching people with it in a practical manner. Telling someone "you need Jesus." is kind of not good enough in my opinion. I want to be able to express the story and overwhelming hope of the Gospel to people I meet everyday. I desire to be full of Christ, living as he would have me live, living for his glory and working to bring his kingdom to earth.

so I want to propose to Zachariah we begin studying the gospel together. I think it would be cool to re-discover Jesus together. How neat? what a blessing! we can discover who Jesus was and is among his disciples, and by doing that, we can grow together as followers of Christ! so. cool.

alright, its just too beautiful outside. I have yet to make it out there to just sit and study, but it WILL happen. I have to re-make my bed with fresh sheets, organize my desk, switch my laundry over to the dryer and hang up my clothes to dry, THEN i will be outside for a while. If you need me, just come and find me outside my house. my phone is dead. sad. day.

cm

The Adventure Called Life Day 192...sold out...

Friday, April 9, 2010

several years ago, my youth pastor challenged us to be "sold out" for Jesus in a sermon series. I remember rededicating my life to Christ, to be completely "sold out" for the kingdom. I am not perfect, but I have managed to stay on the path God has for me at this point in my life.

Ron Kopicko spoke in chapel today. All I kept thinking about was that moment in youth group, when Rhonda, my youth leader, challenged us to "sell out" for Jesus. I'm sure I was smiling very silly, and I was very happy. I felt that God was reminding me of that commitment I made, but I also felt him smiling too. I don't know how to describe it. I'm not saying I've been perfect, but i know that God is pleased with me because I came to Spring Arbor, I am a worship arts student, I am involved in Awaken 24, Wellspring, choir, and I'm going to be an RA. its nice to be smiled upon :)

Awaken 24 is tonight! I'm super excited. Casey, Zach and I are doing a set from 8pm to 10pm. it should be good. it always is...

Lord,
use us, this time is for you, not us. We are here for your praise, your glory and your honor. PRAISE BE TO YOU OH HOLY ONE! i love you.
In Jesus' name,
AMEN.

cm

The Adventure Called Life Day 159...panic button...

have you ever felt like you wanted to hit the panic button at the most terrible moment?
ah. well, tonight was one of those moments.
panic mode set in on me. I volunteered my time for the Awaken 24 at 2am until 4am. Paul Reif agreed to play, which was great. But we didn't rehearse, talk, NOTHING. I'm not sure if that's a good idea. I understand "winging it" is half the fun, but what about being excellent? I don't know if i'm stuck on this for a particular reason, but tonight after he turned down multiple songs in a row, i panicked. ugh. then i couldn't find the key to a hymn we were going to play. it was embarrassing. im sure no one noticed. and im pretty sure God didn't mind. But i felt awful about it. I felt like I wasn't being excellent. at all. I feel like I need to sit down with Paul, but I'm sure he would just brush me off and not take me seriously. he never does. ugh. i hate this.

i was doing so well. I got over Mitch, and now for some stupid reason im stuck on Paul. great. just great. the kid has too many girlfriends to count and he's seventeen to boot. he would never be interested in an old lame junior like me. I'm not even that talented. I suck at keys, and I panic and get frustrated at "winging it". ugh.

Lord,
help. take this away. i don't want this anymore. I am done. please make it stop. I grab a hold of you again, I return. I want to be used by you for your Glory alone.
In Jesus' Name
Amen

also, who am I to expect that someone like Paul would be interested in me. I'm just some other girl in his life, he's got plenty of those. I guess I just want to be THE girl in someone's life. is there really any harm in that? geez. I guess I'll just have to keep praying for patience. and keep giving my heart back to God. For some reason I really like controlling that part of myself. ugh.

cm

The Adventure Called Life Day 152...all consuming fire...

all consuming fire
you're our hearts desire
living flame of love
come baptize us
come baptize us

all consuming fire
you're our hearts desire
living flame of love
come baptize us
come baptize us

Lord,
open our eyes to your light. open us to your love. you alone can satisfy our souls. help us to let go, help us not become blind to your ways and your voice. we love you. in Jesus' name, AMEN.

tonight i could sense myself giving up my desire to no longer be single to God. I truly believe he is now holding my WHOLE heart, not just the parts im willing to give up. I guess I never thought my heart was in "pieces" but I guess its that way for me. anyway, God is so faithful. so good. HOLY HOLY HOLY is the Lord God Almighty. In him alone can I find rest and peace.

cm

The Adventure Called Life Day 144...none but Jesus...

Friday, February 19, 2010

again i arrived back late from campus, and its after midnight before I get this post up :(

there is no one else for me

none but Jesus

crucified to set me free

not i live to bring Him praise

in the chaos in confusion

i know you're sovereign still

in the moment of my weakness

you give me strength to do your will

and when you call i won't delay

this my song for all my days

there is no one else for me

none but Jesus

crucified to set me free

now i live to bring Him praise

Awaken 24 is really awesome. such a blessing. now its time for sleep. I have drumline in the morning...

cm