come away with me...

i feel it again. i feel the call, the call from Almighty God to "come away with me" and I just can't believe it. Is it awful i noticed Paul wasn't there tonight? Or if he was, im not aware of him as I thought. I feel HORRIBLE about this. ugh. *sigh* Why do I do this? Why do I do this to myself. I need to be patient. I need to rest in God's promise of fulfilling the desires of my heart...

Lord,
forgive me for becoming distracted. I praise you that I was able to focus completely on you once the service started, but forgive me for not having you as my focus the entire time. I don't know what to do with this desire within me. Can you do something about it? Will you show me what it is that I am supposed to learn from this? I am asking WHAT and not WHY GOD? Please, I want to know you more, I want to know what you have for me and those around me. I desire to be yours O God. Teach me what it means to live by the Spirit, Lord to dwell in your presence all day long. O Lord, find me faithful, find me serving your Kingdom and your name. I love you. I am in awe of you.
In Jesus' name,
AMEN.

so im going to answer the call. quick wash of my face, and im off. im off to go walk around campus, don't worry i'll have my phone on me and i'll wear white so i can be seen :) thanks for all your prayers and support everyone. I love each of you very very much!

cm

The Adventure Called Life Day 163...coffee...

i am being intentional about building relationships. I am having coffee with one of my well spring teammates this afternoon. Marrissa LeClair is an extremely gifted, bright and talented woman of God. She is a freshmen, but she is so passionate, so on fire for God. Its such a blessing! We are the two vocalists on the team, and I just love love love singing with her. She challenges me to be my best, and to always mean from my very soul what I am singing. Its great. so great! 

anyway, I am being intentional about relationships. I think its about time that someone steps up to the plate. I feel like I sit back and pine for relationships when if I would just take the initiative and start being intentional about who I spend my time with, then I would be building Christ centered relationships. I am nervous. I desire to be an RA. I truly want to give back in this way, and I want to experience community living again. I miss it. I never thought I would miss it, but I truly do. I hope that the committee has chosen me to be an RA. I would love love love that job! AH! please Lord! I want to be used by you, and being an RA would be so awesome, such a blessing before I leave this place. 

have you ever felt oddly at peace about something, and then because you feel at peace you begin to worry? I know, oxymoron, but that's how i think sometimes. Its not good. Its not the right way to think. so no more being nervous. its time to make lunch, fold laundry and get on with the day. the first official WAVE service is tonight. i'll have to update about that later...

cm