The Adventure Called Life Day 177...switchfoot? or sleep?...We

Wednesday, March 25, 2010

switchfoot or sleep.

JOHN FOREMAN! 

yes. 

that's what i did tonight. $25, 45 minute drive with Sinko and Voiles. and JOHN FOREMAN.

so. sweet.

i <3 my life. i so <3 being a college kid. oh to be single and free. LOL and to think i want to be in a relationship.

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The Adventure Called Life Day 154...performing...

why do i get so nervous when performing? why do i literally freak out? im not sure.

well I had Paul play for me again. I sang "Turn it Off" by Paramore. He wouldn't rehearse with me. I sort of freaked out. well im still freaking out. I'm sure he enjoyed it, making me squirm. ugh. i really need to quit doing this to myself. I just need to calm down, and stop freaking out. *deep breath* im not sure if he just wanted to make me not want to work with him anymore? im not sure *deep breath* i can't do this to myself. its not fair to do this to myself. but if he EVER does that again. I think i might not speak to him. seriously. wow, now there's a word i haven't used in awhile :)

well im just flustered. and im not happy with my performance to top it. so ugh. double ugh. *scream of frustration*

*sigh*

Lord,
you alone are worth of praise, you alone are worthy of all the glory. I love you. You are HOLY HOLY HOLY. I am so unworthy of your love. i love you. i exalt your name. PRAISE THE LORD O MY SOUL PRAISE THE LORD!!
in Jesus' Name,
AMEN

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singleness

so my roommates are discussing the struggle of being single.

ugh. i simply abhor being single right now. but that is not okay. that is not right. my heart is in the wrong place. im focusing on what i don't have, rather than focusing on what i do have. so let's make  list, of why its so grand to be single...

going to the movies by myself (this is getting lame, but sometimes i still enjoy it)
taking a drive, with the music as loud as i want it
girls night in - every week night (since i do live in a house full of women!)

and that concludes the list. for now. I'm praying that God shows me the beauty of being single. everyday, that he reveals it to me, and that i would learn to be thankful and content for now in my singleness.

I guess I am just struggling with the thoughts like, "Oh, this is such fun, I wish so and so was here, I know it would make them smile." or "This would be so much fun to share with someone special..." ugh.

Lord,
Show me what it means to be single, and how full my life can be in it. Let me not dwell on what I am missing, rather help me to dwell on what I do have. Father, I thank you for your grace, and that your mercies are new every morning. In Jesus' name,
AMEN

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