Lord,
give me the desire to understand first, then to be understood. Let me work first to understand someone before I want to be understood myself. Give me opportunities to listen, and to understand others. Take away this selfish desire to be wanted and understood from me. I don't want it anymore. I desire to understand. I desire to know other people and where they are coming from. Thank you for this opportunity to apply for an RA position. I do want to be an RA, but I want what you want for me and the women of this campus, not necessarily what I want. So Lord, calm my spirit and my heart, help me to give my best, to be excellent for your Glory. I love you.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN
cm
Showing posts with label listening. Show all posts
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Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
The Adventure Called Life Day 104...something more...
So I pour over pages
desperate to find out why
the cripple at your table
has what I'm longing to find
teach me how to hum it
'cause I don't know the words yet
help me see the light
I'm reaching through the fight
Yawhea show me the Kingdom
arms open wide
death swallowed up by life
Yawhea show me the Kingdom
desperate to find out why
the cripple at your table
has what I'm longing to find
teach me how to hum it
'cause I don't know the words yet
help me see the light
I'm reaching through the fight
Yawhea show me the Kingdom
arms open wide
death swallowed up by life
Yawhea show me the Kingdom
SHOW ME THE KINGDOM - Bethany Dillon - Waking Up
I awoke this morning at 9 am. I was not thankful to be breathing yet again. I wanted to roll over and go back to sleep. I had tried to go to bed last night at 11 pm. But to no avail, I was restless, and I found myself back at the computer. Finally I went to sleep around 1:30.
so anyway, Drumline today was such fun. I love hanging out with those people. I also LOVE playing cymbals! I'm not very good at keeping my place in the music sometimes, but Ben indulges my love of Drumline quite graciously. The women's bball team put up a fight, but lost against Grace this afternoon. Eric sang the national anthem very well, then joined us on Shannon's bass drum because she couldn't be there. She's not feeling well :(
Rachel came over this evening, so good to see her! I really enjoy hanging out with her. She is still dating Justin, and they are doing well. Justin is going through some tough stuff right now, so prayers for him are appreciated.
back to the song I put up on the top of this post. I heard this song in the shower this morning. and it hit me really hard that I have been listening, but not allowing God to show me his Kingdom in the world around me. So today, I did that. I let myself sit back and take the world in. Its times like this, away at school, bogged down my academic responsibilities that I am the most frustrated. I feel like I cannot make a difference. Maybe I'm not supposed to at particular moments. What if I stepped back and allowed someone else around me to make the difference for a change? What if I allowed God to SHOW me rather than just tell me my "orders" and send me out? What if I was constantly aware of Him, and what he was doing in every moment?
My life would look drastically different! I would be less worried about what others thought of me, and more in tune with what God was saying and doing. He is always at work. Why do I think that I dictate that? In a way I dictate his effectiveness. I can either be an open and surrendered vessel, or I can just be another obstacle for Him to work around. I desire to be that vessel.
O Lord, empty me of myself. Fill me up with you. Quiet my spirit, my heart, my soul. Speak O Lord, for your servant is listening...In Jesus' Name, AMEN.
cm
so anyway, Drumline today was such fun. I love hanging out with those people. I also LOVE playing cymbals! I'm not very good at keeping my place in the music sometimes, but Ben indulges my love of Drumline quite graciously. The women's bball team put up a fight, but lost against Grace this afternoon. Eric sang the national anthem very well, then joined us on Shannon's bass drum because she couldn't be there. She's not feeling well :(
Rachel came over this evening, so good to see her! I really enjoy hanging out with her. She is still dating Justin, and they are doing well. Justin is going through some tough stuff right now, so prayers for him are appreciated.
back to the song I put up on the top of this post. I heard this song in the shower this morning. and it hit me really hard that I have been listening, but not allowing God to show me his Kingdom in the world around me. So today, I did that. I let myself sit back and take the world in. Its times like this, away at school, bogged down my academic responsibilities that I am the most frustrated. I feel like I cannot make a difference. Maybe I'm not supposed to at particular moments. What if I stepped back and allowed someone else around me to make the difference for a change? What if I allowed God to SHOW me rather than just tell me my "orders" and send me out? What if I was constantly aware of Him, and what he was doing in every moment?
My life would look drastically different! I would be less worried about what others thought of me, and more in tune with what God was saying and doing. He is always at work. Why do I think that I dictate that? In a way I dictate his effectiveness. I can either be an open and surrendered vessel, or I can just be another obstacle for Him to work around. I desire to be that vessel.
O Lord, empty me of myself. Fill me up with you. Quiet my spirit, my heart, my soul. Speak O Lord, for your servant is listening...In Jesus' Name, AMEN.
cm
Monday, January 4, 2010
The Adventure Called Life Day 099...your love never fails...
this summer I rediscovered Jesus Culture, and Kay Hinkle brought to our wellspring team the song, "Your Love Never Fails."
today I was reading Lamentations and I came across Lamentations 3:22-24 "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed. for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "the Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for him."
I usually don't like to lament, or even think about lamenting. I like to be happy, joyus all the time. But there is a place for lament. So, I am reading Lamentations as my old testament book for now...a couple of weeks ago Andy Merritt, lead pastor at River Tree Community Church in Jackson, MI. It was the third week of advent, and the sermon was on Hope in the waiting. He used this Lamentations passage as an example. I read this this morning, let it mull over, then went about my day. I was listening to some music off of my ipod while lifting weights and the song, "your love never fails" came on. I almost dropped the weight in my hand! the lyrics are straight out of this passage. I loved it. I always found this song to be hopeful. I guess I just never put it into the context of lamenting. You can remain hopeful while lamenting. I believe if to be entirely possible. Praise the Lord!
You stay the same through the ages,
your love never changes
there maybe pain in the night
but joy comes in the morning
and when the oceans rage
i don't have to be afraid
because I know that you love me
and your love never fails
today I was reading Lamentations and I came across Lamentations 3:22-24 "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed. for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "the Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for him."
I usually don't like to lament, or even think about lamenting. I like to be happy, joyus all the time. But there is a place for lament. So, I am reading Lamentations as my old testament book for now...a couple of weeks ago Andy Merritt, lead pastor at River Tree Community Church in Jackson, MI. It was the third week of advent, and the sermon was on Hope in the waiting. He used this Lamentations passage as an example. I read this this morning, let it mull over, then went about my day. I was listening to some music off of my ipod while lifting weights and the song, "your love never fails" came on. I almost dropped the weight in my hand! the lyrics are straight out of this passage. I loved it. I always found this song to be hopeful. I guess I just never put it into the context of lamenting. You can remain hopeful while lamenting. I believe if to be entirely possible. Praise the Lord!
You stay the same through the ages,
your love never changes
there maybe pain in the night
but joy comes in the morning
and when the oceans rage
i don't have to be afraid
because I know that you love me
and your love never fails
-Jesus Culture - Your Love Never Fails
tomorrow I will find myself back at the arbor. I'm excited.I can't wait to see everyone, and most importantly get back to River Tree. I am anxious to learn what God has been doing while we've been away...and I"m nervous. God has been doing a lot in me these past three weeks. I'm not the same woman who left Gregory House at noon, thursday afternoon during exam week. I just pray that I stay this way, open, surrendered and LISTENING.
cm
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
The Adventure Called Life Day 052
good morning SAU!
I woke up this morning, not really thankful to be breathing. fortunately morning meditation with God helped immensely. I make it a point to not speak, and not even think about what is coming up that day for the first half hour of my day. I work on LISTENING. this is something I struggle with during normal conversation, much less my conversations with God. So far its been awful. I have to constantly stop myself from jumping ahead to what needs to be done that day. This morning all I could think about is, I have to meet with Jake after Chapel, then there is a Choir rehearsal at 6:30 and Prop Shop worship at 8pm.
anyway. I'm praying for peace this morning. I have lots to do, and of course not a whole lot of time because of classes and preparation for tonight.
well I better pay attention in class, I'm sitting in Spanish. Since I've been sick, I'm quite far behind...wish me luck....
cm
I woke up this morning, not really thankful to be breathing. fortunately morning meditation with God helped immensely. I make it a point to not speak, and not even think about what is coming up that day for the first half hour of my day. I work on LISTENING. this is something I struggle with during normal conversation, much less my conversations with God. So far its been awful. I have to constantly stop myself from jumping ahead to what needs to be done that day. This morning all I could think about is, I have to meet with Jake after Chapel, then there is a Choir rehearsal at 6:30 and Prop Shop worship at 8pm.
anyway. I'm praying for peace this morning. I have lots to do, and of course not a whole lot of time because of classes and preparation for tonight.
well I better pay attention in class, I'm sitting in Spanish. Since I've been sick, I'm quite far behind...wish me luck....
cm
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